So here I am in the bed. It's just past 12:30 and I am wide awake. I'm up thinking about how good God is. Even with the challenges of life I consider myself extremely blessed. Got the new book in the mail today(MAY the Best Man Win) and catapulted my catatonic state of mind to excitement. I opened the book flipped through the pages, laughed at the wild things that I wrote. I felt it like it was a long lost lover....Lol
Seeing the progress of an effort in its entirety is overwhelming. My heart raced as I opened the box and peeked in. For some reason I didn't think it would happen.
Many people don't know that I struggle with confidence and depression in some areas of my life. I am happy, but get easily discouraged and distracted. My mind races all of the time. My state mind can shift in an instant. If I read something on a social site that I don't like or agree with it sends me down a path of overwhelming mental shifting. I am not crazy...Lol just a thinker. I think too much, too long and too hard.
Inadequacies about myself consume me at times. I'm sure most go through similar things, but it takes away from my productivity.
Then I get depressed about that and ponder on my self hindrances. Ugh.
I really wonder how I made it through writing my publication. I know it was God that did it. I just simply marvel.
About to turn in now. Peace.
Lord have mercy May the best man win I read that book in one day more like a straight eight hours. I saw alot of myself in Kardell and a little of Lewis. GREAT BOOK could not put it down there was alot of truth in the story line about Black men in the gay life. Thank you and continue writting ...I have started my own collection of your books so far I have 4 books
ReplyDeleteYou got to read May the Best Man Win. The ending is off off off the chain something that you would not! I repeat not expect!!!!! Can't and Won't Tell Just get the book, And for some it is easy reading
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