This will be a random post and all over the place...lol. Bare with me.
So I turned 34 yesterday, and I had time to sit back and reflect over my life. Me and one of my best friends were out eating and we were talking about aspirations and where we were a few years back versus where we are now in life. We both talked about regrets and some shoulda, woulda, coulda's, but then came to the realization that we have come a long way and we have grown as individuals. Neither one of us thought that we would be were we are right now(single). We concluded that we are not miserable or really lacking it just that there are some thing that we would like to accomplish that we thought we would have accomplished by now. She has a car, a great job, and friends, but is still looking for companionship in someone with solid values and moral, with the understanding that they will come with some baggage. I on the the other hand was just wondering if I was really doing what I am supposed to be doing career-wise (being an author). I mean I love the experience and I can say that I am successful, but is this what I want to be doing permanently? I am still unsure of this. I mean I have aspirations as a singer, musician and songwriter. Didn't really want to be famous or a household name, but just successful in my own right. Some days I see that happening and others I just don't see it.
Anyway, I am also working on getting my credit right and such straight and God knows it has been tough, but successful. I am 34 and my 'credit' is almost clear, but my score is horrible...lol. Which leads me to establishing some credit. A car. But first I need to get the license and things just don't seem to be going as fast as I want it to go. I get frustrated that it's not, but I believe in the old adage that says 'good things come to those who wait'. Well, waiting is not on my list of best character traits. I'm patient, but sometimes i can have an adult tantrum(in my mind). but, I have no choice but to wait and be patient. So, i'm expecting some more newness in my life. I have 9 publications out and some more planned for the future. My vocal abilities are changing for the better and I am starting to feel more comfortable sing around strangers and messing up in front of them. I can say what a relief that it is to not really care what people think about my gifts and just share them and move on. Again, I am expecting newness in the coming months. some fresh starts, better relationships, opportunities and meeting new people. One...Two...Three.....Newness!
It is really cool knowing that other people are going through the same thing. I'm very impressed that you have 9 projects out. I'm still struggling to get my one off the ground, but it will rise, no doubt!
ReplyDeleteI think you should continue writing so long as God places stories within you to tell. You'll know when it's time to move on. I also think you should explore those other talents. I think we can have it all, but not necessarily all at the same time. We go through seasons; so maybe as you evolve, each of your other interests will take center stage in your life as you grow.